Phoenix Rising

Hi my name is Phoenix. I’m starting this new page to write about my healing journey with Dissociative Identity Disorder. I will be writing about my experiences, my thoughts and my feelings on various topics. I will be discussing my mental health, physical health and the hobbies that help me along the way.

Lets begin with a little bit about me. I am a 46 year old female who identifies as a lesbian. Within my Dissociative Identity Disorder I have many other Alters/Personalities, to be honest there are too many Alters for me to put a number to that fact right now. Myself and my Alters have spent over a decade trying to deeply heal from severe childhood trauma. for the past twenty years there have been many times when I have dissociated for long periods of time, sometimes even months have passed. As we have continued to heal I have become stronger. Although I still have moments of Dissociation I am now more able to communicate with others inside to try to work out what the triggers are and to work more to help my system. It feels great to finally be at the front and be more in control of my life. I am deeply grateful for the alters who have fronted for long periods and who have kept our life together with things like looking after our health and paying the bills. I am indebted to their strength and courage to keep pushing forward even when things have been so difficult. My main hobby is video games. I have been playing video games since I was around four years old. I currently enjoy playing on my PS5. I like technology and enjoy occasionally gaming in VR. I have both the PSVR and Quest 2 headsets. I am spiritual and hope to write quite a bit more about what that means for me and my journey. I look forward to unfolding on here and hope that if you come here to read my journey You might find something that resonates or helps with your own journey.